Temptations....

Well, we did it! Mr Wonderful actually applied for another job! It feels strange and possibly freeing....however, with that wonderful step there comes another temptation.

There was talk of a hefty raise to stay working with the business and when we do the numbers (if we get the raise we'd like) and figure in the fact that Mr Wonderful drives a company rig....it might be that the money would be better staying where we are. Having said that, we have some thinking to do on how valuable Mr Wonderful's time at home is and how much having him more emotionally available is worth to us. I mean the stress and hours alone are tough, granted more money would make that more worth it.....but we also have to keep in mind not to be weak to more money if it is not a good situation long term. We can't let a good job opportunity pass us by and look back and regret it later unless we are sure we want to stay.

The things making us lean towards the government job are the benefits, (right now we pay our own independent health insurance, there is medical available with his current job but all the employees are so much older than us that our portion would cost us a fortune! We don't have dental insurance offered which is a huge problem because we have a lot of dental expenses every year.) The hours for the new job would be less, he will still have some probable overtime but probably not near as much as now, and he'll be able to leave work at work and not stew over important decisions at home all the time like he does now. There is room for advancement and career growth and raises down the line with this job opportunity as well. It is a tough comparison in many ways. Luckily we don't have to make any decisions right now, right now we wait (darn patience bone, I can't seem to find it, again!) to see if he even gets invited to interview let alone offered the job! We are praying that he does get the job offered to him so that we can have a chance at that decision.

We don't really want to leave in so many ways, we want to see the business thrive but we just aren't sure we have the same vision. I feel more confused now than when I did earlier! How is that possible? I have no idea but is has been proven just this minute.

Time will tell, he may not even get an offer for the job he just applied for. So now I am trying to distract myself by figuring out our front landscaping plan. We did about 30% of it last year and now want to add in another 30% of the plants we need to fill it in. That is all we can afford to do each year. It works nicely though because you can see what is working and what you want to add into the mix of plants you already have, then wait another year to see how much more you want to add, meanwhile I try to fill in the blank areas with annuals.